just being the me!

now, i shall start my post with a prayer...

dear god, please help me with whatever i'm doing with my life now... amen!

i think i can sort of say that i AM seriously messed up with my life. the 4 fantastic factor that contributes to my messed up life:

1. homework (major factor) - TRYING to work hard to clear my pile of homework, yet... i shall let you imagine. with the amount of homework piling up like Mt Everest (okay, a little bit of exaggerating), here i am lazing around and keep consoling myself with the famous quote, "later lar!"... see! that is what happen to lazy people like me. due to this, i have to stay up late every night and look like a zombie. believe it or not, i sleep with the lights on every night on weekdays. it is not that i am afraid of the dark, i am actually afraid that i will fall asleep with my homework left uncompleted the following day. god, why do i have to be so lazy?

2. piano - my practical exam is on the 14/08/2009. yes, that means i have less than 10 lessons before my exam (thats what my teacher says every lesson). and my teacher is DEFINATELY NOT nodding her head. bad sign! to make things worse, she actually told my mum that no, i am not prepared for my exam. guess what is the best part? she is going to give me (an unprepared student) a trial exam tomorrow. how great can that be?

3. installation - installation is less than 2 weeks. this is what i hear everytime ,"what is happening?" geez! what a good question! so much for the no last minute work. actually, it is not that last minute. but...

4. exams - july exams are coming, unfortunately. here i am still blurring in class. how to score leh? haizzz. to make things better, i am also starting to have the "anti-tuition" feeling which i used to have. this is just great! everytime my exams are around the corner, here i am having that feeling of plain laziness. this is when i start finding excuses to skip my tuitions. fantastic man! a stupid girl here who can't score in exams is talking about skipping tuition. what a spoilt brat! boohoo.

you think i'm busy? let me tell you this, "no, i'm not". this is just plain, back to the same old word - LAZINESS! ha! my mum would be glad to hear that. it seems like i know it but i'm not doing anything about it. boohoo! =(